20140312右臀脂肪瘤手術

還在崇明國小雙語部服務時(2006年前後吧)，我開始了乳房腫瘤科的檢查，一兩年後(還沒離開崇明的樣子)我摸到右臀上有一顆不小的腫塊，再度就醫曹朝榮院長(柳營奇美)時我憂慮的請他檢查，他看了一眼就安慰我說，喔，脂肪瘤，都是良性的，我們腫瘤科只怕小的(常是惡性的)，不怕大的。我問他需要處理掉它嗎?他說不必浪費醫療資源。我丈夫認為沒有真正良性的腫瘤，應該請外科醫師處理掉它。但我覺得麻煩，多一事不如少一事，就沒理會它。如曹醫師所說的這顆脂肪瘤果真沒有自行消失，而且慢慢成長著。但我穿衣服喜歡寬大，很少穿合身的衣服，所以就不太看得出來，或者大家就想，中年發福囉，淑芬。

也的確是發福不少，所以衣服都開始不合穿了，裙褲的腰圍最清楚了。

除了穿衣服之外，我也有痔瘡的困擾。寒假裡我收到學園傳道會麗慧姐傳來邀約一起11月前去以色列一個月的訊息，我很想參加，心想如果能成行，我該在出發前先把這些能處理的小毛病處理好才對。

2014年寒假只有20天，極短但豐盛遠超以往。開學後第一次週三和秀靜姊妹禱告聚會時，她提到在寒假裡她的血糖竟然不合常情的降下了，她的胸部則長有水瘤。她提到就醫葉明宏外科診所，她說它就在學校附近。不知怎樣這就觸動了我心弦，接下來的週一(Feb. 17 or 24)學生集會時，我就特別找秀靜問這診所的位置，週一11:20~12:00我就趁沒課，跟教務處請了半小時的外出，就騎著鐵馬奔往診所。葉醫師驚奇我的脂肪瘤已經那麼大，他看了他的schedule and asked me if March 12 Wednesday afternoon was OK with me.  I hoped it could be a little earlier, but he said that was the earlier possibility.  So, it was set--15:30 of March 12.

The doctor and  nurse told me that the regular operation time would be a half hour, but with this greater in size it would be about an hour.  And they said I should not walk too much after the operation.  So I thought about taking Thursday (March 13) off.  There are only 3 periods of classes on Thursday in my schedule, and there shouldn't be too much trouble.  As for Friday, it would be very hard since I have 6 periods of classes to teach.  When I was trying to reschedule the 3 periods of my Thursday classes, I found out that March 13 & 14 were the dates for all grade 5 students' field trip to Tainan City International English Village.  I am in charge of this trip and am not supposed to be absent at all.  However, these two days would be very "LESS WALK" workdays for me since the homeroom teachers will be coming along.  Somehow, I was filled with great awe with this co-incidence.

那一陣子我正好讀到一本書 "巧合不是偶然的"  副標題說巧合是上帝在 wink ( > < 眼睛)

週三下午在附小是排滿研習的，約定的手術時間是15:30，我本想就提早半個多小時，就不請假了。但後來，又看到書商拿了一份Grammar & Games的研習資料，日期正好是3月12日下午13:30~15:30在復興國小，我就轉念，我上全國教師網報了名後再向附小請假前去參加研習。先參加研習，再提早一點離開，前去診所赴約。

原先，在週三中午的禱告聚會裡我拜託秀靜和貴美協調術後在我回家。後來，3月8日我在台北和先生道北投菜場買菜時教會姐妹櫻樺來電說她和惠英可以來帶我回家。但是正好前一晚我先生告訴我他要調他自己的課，他會下來陪我去手術，所以我就婉謝櫻樺的好意了。

我先生的山東老鄉，教會的王老弟兄，他們夫妻總是關懷著我先生，囑他南下實務必抽空一起吃吃麵食。我問我先生，你這趟下來我們中午和王先生夫婦共進午餐如何，他說可，我就連絡妥一起到五花馬用餐，但我沒告訴他們我要手術。

手術前一晚是教會禱告聚會，大家為我的手術禱告，隔晨的晨更大家再為我提名禱告了。

週三11:10下課，11:30我先生到達附小，我們大約11:45離開，接了王弟兄夫婦，驅車往五花馬。十分豐盛的一餐，餐後我先生就先到王弟兄家，我自己先去參加研習。我是第2個早到的，先跟負責的書商工作人員和講師RONNIE致歉，因我需要提前提開。研習開始不久竟然旁邊的人點我一下，一看竟是月婷。

如計劃我提早在2:30左右離開研習再去王弟兄家接我先生，3:00到了診所，護理師說來早了，坐再舒適的座位等候時我倦意極深，就閉目休息。很準時3:30時我被叫，單獨的上了2樓的手術間，等候醫師。

消毒棉棒在臀部患處消毒，冰冰涼涼。醫師進來後開始打了數針麻醉，有感刺痛。一刀畫下，有感卻不痛，但神智清晰敏銳，太敏銳了，護理師頻頻要我忍耐怪怪的感覺，的確是怪，清晰感覺到醫生的使勁拉扯推擠。我開始想著十架上的耶穌，無罪的祂全無麻醉的被釘，掛起，經過數時辰，血流氣絕。我心想著耶穌，口中不斷呼叫耶穌的名, which took my mind off what the doctor had been doing to my right hip.  And then, some time later, I felt some sharp pains and could not cooperate.  The doctor gave me some make-up麻醉, then he could resume and finish up the last part of the operation.

After all was done, the doctor showed me what he had taken from inside my right hip.  It was a full pan of shiny dark yellow fat-balls.  It was beautiful but very shocking.  He told me that I might have lost 1 or 2 kilos of body weight without them.  The nurse protested that it was not that much.

I was more than happy and relieved to step down and left the operation room.  The first sight I saw right after I stepped out was Brother 承貴 waiting at the waiting room.  He said he just had to come over and prayed for me.  And his parents were waiting in the car out side.

When my husband and I left the clinic, I intended to get home as soon as possible.  However, we stopped at the afternoon market on 崇德市場，再買些消毒紗布棉棒和優碘。我們先驅車道高鐵站，我再自己開車回家。我以為是麻藥未褪或數後服的止痛藥有效力，都沒有痛的感覺。回到家一整晚媽媽都沒感覺異狀，我也就沒主動告訴她。週三到週六了(現在)，母親都還不知道她的女兒開了一刀，真是驚人。

確實是驚人恩典---完全不痛!!

完全不痛，只是要盡力配合醫囑，多吃肉少走動。

手術後的兩天"正好"是帶學生到博愛國小英語村的戶外教學日，我幾乎可以完全不走動，除了走去上廁所和餐廳吃飯。兩餐的中午都有煎豬肉排，我各吃了2片。心裡滿了敬畏和感恩!

2天後回診，週五上午遊覽車司機答應帶我去長榮路口，我拜託五乙的姻秀老師幫我繳款，我就"好整以暇"的慢步到診所掛號候診。

醫師說傷口很好，但他叮囑我不可以因感覺不痛就太走動，他說裡面的洞不小。是哪，那一大盤的脂肪要佔不少空間的。至於我的 complain--totally pain-free.  He said he did not know why.  But the pain-reliever is not what makes it so.  4月9日拆線。

My husband has been talking me into walking slower, but I have been too stubborn to change my style.
With this operation, I somehow have been made to slow down eventually, even though there hasn't been any pains felt.  在人不能，在神無所不能。 這真是真實哪!

週五下午在英語村時聽到我的音樂盒子的一首歌  我相信

我相信祢的應許  我相信祢的愛  我相信祢的真實   我相信祢

所以我來為要愛祢  所以我來為要敬拜祢   

祢在我身  作為可畏   我一生敬拜祢

後記: 4月9日拆線  4月12日(術後一個月)我忍不住自己讓媽媽看我右臀上的恩典記號，她還問我那是什麼，媽媽真的老眼昏花了